I'm feeling so so tired right now and my brain is feeling so so numbed! The rountine of working more than 12 hours a day 7 days a week is killing me. It is so frustrating and depressing.
I can't wait when I can have a nice glass of wine and just relax with the good companion of mine, when there is no worries, no constraints what so ever! Being trapped in a room working like this everyday is driving me crazy and I can feel that the monster depression is coming back for me!
I am so worried that it might take more than a few days to recover from my wisdom teeth operation on next Friday, as we have this construction mangement project due the Friday after. It is obvious that I will have to drag myself into uni to work on that however crappy I feel that week as I can't not have any input into the project. The whole group will just get pissed off with me and some of them are probably already pretty annoyed with me already! I am sorry that I don't get into uni until 10am, I just feel too tired every morning and cannot get up!
This whole group work shit is really doing my head in and I assure you that I will be able to work with any people with any personalities after these couple of years! I am losing it! I compromise everyday! I get more and more scared everyday to put my ideas across as I have lost faith in myself. I believe that I am shit and useless. I'd rather sit back and let the rest of them decide what they want to do and I would just work alongside with them, because I don't think I am good enough.
For the past couple of weeks, I feel like shit! I feel like I can burst into tears in any minutes, I fee like I will explode in any seconds. I am so depressed and desperate!
One of the most hopeless feelings in the world is when you have to go on doing something that you really hate!
Friday, 29 February 2008
Saturday, 23 February 2008
God damn it! Get me outta here!!!
Liverpool 2008 European City of Culture 一點兒也感覺不到 Culture 去了那裡
求求其其整幾個show整幾個大燈排整幾個shopping mall然後放番條high street入去
You call this the City of Culture? please...
係 冇錯Tuner Prize係喺 Liverpool Tate 度展覽
但我覺得立例: 不准任何人於公眾場所穿著 tracksuit, 吐痰 比較實際
那整個 City 就已經好看得多啦! What a waste of time...
I am so bored and sick of this place! City of Culture! I can see it becoming more like a city, but I see no culture here what so ever!
When can I leave? This is driving me crazy! I've been feeling like I've been in prison! Give me my life back! damn you, Liverpool and Architecture!!!
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